Poora Mind Fuck!

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Amit Kumar Singh [12:03 PM]:
yes sir ..
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Amit Kumar Singh [12:06 PM]:
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DM [12:13 PM]:
Paanch ke gaane sun na... poora mind fuck stuff
Amit Kumar Singh[12:13 PM]:
maa bahan ki yaad ... LOLzz I love this song!


...and ever since, "Yeh Kaisa hai Shahar" from Paanch (that censored movie from Anurag Kashyap) has played gazillion times on my PC. Move over Janis Joplin!

Chhalla

Chhalla vas nahi o mere / The ring, it listens to no one
Chhalla vas meri maan de / The ring, it listens only to my Mother
Ghallegi tan jange / It will leave only if she tells it to
Ve gall sun, chhalleya / Listen my love
Khaure keeta kis is ‘te toona / Don’t know who’s cast this spell

Chhalla aa pia khuh ‘te / The ring, it lies on the well
Gallan karie munh ‘te / Let’s talk face to face
Ve gall sun, chhalleya / Listen my love
Sanu vekhan nu tera ji ni karda / Don’t you wanna see me sometime
Tainu vekhe bina mera ni sarda / It’s hard for me not to see you

Chhalla bambii da paani / The ring, Earth's water
Kithhey veh gaye ne jaani / Where has my love drifted to
Asaan khabar ko na jaani / I have no news
Ve gall sun, chhalleya / Listen my love
Teri beri ik uggeya ey kanda / On your berry has grown a thorn

Chhalla ambian kachian / The ring, unripe mangoes
Mattan de koi sachian / Someone give me sage advices
Laiey lekhe jo bachian / Let’s commit to contemplation
Terian merian gharian / What’s left of time, yours and mine
Ve gall sun, chhalleya / Listen my love
Langh javan ain na umran khaali / Or our lives will go waste

Chhalla gut ik lammi / The ring, a long braid
Asan supne si chummi / I kissed it in my dream
Hoi neeyat si anni / The desire had gone blind
Asan dil di si manni / But I listened to my heart
Ve gall sun, chhalleya / Listen my love
Hun de lai jehrhi deni ey sazaa / Now punish me as you will

Chhalla boardh ik ‘kalla / The ring, a lone banyan
Unhe fardheya ey palla / He holds on to the
Thalle dharat utte Allah / Earth below and God above
Ve gall sun, chhalleya / Listen my love
Khaure jandian kinni dunghian jarhan / How far run his roots
Es gall da os khud nu nahi pata / He knows not himself

~Rabbi Shergill

Aarzoo

Nahin nigaah mein manzil to just-a-joo hi sahi,
nahin visaal mein mayassar, to aarzoo hi sahi ...

~uncredited

Naghma

Ambar pe milte hain qadmon ke nishaan tere hi, har shaam...
Khidki pe likh jaata hai koi, os kii boondon se tera naam..

Nakhra

Zabaan ki Dyodhi par machli hui wo baat,
chaukhat ke paar,
aangan par ruki,
mujhe mud kar dekha,
aur tunak kar boli,
"jaao, main tumse nahin bolungi!"

~
maanu

Baat

Sehar sey raat ki sargoshian, bahar ki baat
Jahan mein aam huee chashm-e-intezaar ki baat

Dilon ki tishnagi jitnee, dilon ka gham jitna
Usee qadar hai zamaney mein husn-e-yaar ki baat

Jahan bhee baitthey hain, jis jaa bhee raat mai pee hai
Unhin ki aankhon key qissay, unhin key pyaar kee baat

Chaman ki aankh bhar aayee, kali ka dil dhadka,
labon pay ayee hai jab bhee kisee qaraar ki baat

Yeh zard zard ujaaley, yeh raat raat ka dard,
Yehi to reh gayee ab jaan-e-beqarar ki baat

Tamaam umr chali hai, tamaam umr chaley,
Ilahi khatam na ho yaar-e-ghamgusaar ki baat...

~Maqdoom

Sargoshian - whispers
chashm-e-intezaar - waiting in hope
Tishnagi- desire/thirst/longing
husn-e-yaar - beauty of the beloved
Qarar - residence/stability/rest/patience/satisfaction
Ghamgusaar - sympathizer

Khokhle lafz

Us raqeeb se hum kyon kar fariyaad karein?
aao is veeraan zindagi ko fir se shaad karein...

~maanu

Kyon?

Kisi ko deke dil koi nawaa-sanj-e-fughaan kyon ho,
na ho jab dil hi seene mein, to fir munh mein zubaan kyon ho?

Woh apni khuu na chhodenge, hum apni wazaa kyon badlein,
subak-sar ban ke kya poochhein, ke hum se sar-garaan kyon ho?

Kiya ghamkhwaar ne ruswaa, lage aag is mohabbat ko,
na laaye taab jo gham ki, woh mera raazdaan kyon ho?

Wafa kaisi, kahaan ka ishq, jab sar phodna thhahra,
to phir aye sangdil, teraa hi sang-e-aastaan kyon ho?

Qafas mein mujh se rudaad-e-chaman kahte na dar humdum,
giri hai jis pe bijli woh mera aashiyaan kyon ho?

Yeh fitnaa aadmi ki khaanaa-veeraani ko kya kam hai,
hue tum dost jiske, dushman uska aasmaan kyon ho?

Yehi hai aazmaanaa, to sataanaa kisko kehte hain,
udu ke ho liye jab tum, to mera imtihaan kyon ho?

Ghalat hai jazb-e-dil ka shikwaa, dekho jurm kiska hai,
na kheincho gar tum apne ko, kashaakash darmiyaan kyon ho?

Nikaalna chahta hai kaam kya taanon se tuu Ghalib,
tere be-mehar kahne se woh tujh par meharbaan kyon ho?

~Ghalib

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Nawaa-sanj-e-fughaan : Lamentation of a singer
zubaan : toungue/speech
khuu : habit
wazaa : behaviour
subak-sar : light headed/ frivolous
sar-garaan : annoyed
ghamkhwaar : sympathizer
ruswa : dishonor
taab : patience , endurance, strength
raazdaan : confidant
sangdil : stone-hearted
sang-e-aastaan : limit
Qafas : cage, prison
rudaad-e-chaman : tales of heaven
aashiyaan : Nest, house
fitnaa : mischievous
khaanaa-veeraani : ruination
udu : rival-suitor
jazb-e-dil : attraction of the heart
shikwa : complaint
kashaakash : dilemma, contention
taanon : taunts
be-mehar : unkind
meherbaan : kind
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Abhi pichchle hafte hii Kamleshwar ki "Kitne Pakistan" padhi, wahin is nazm kii kuchch line-ein bhi padhi. Aur jaisi ki kuchch line-on kii aadaat hoti hai ... aapke saath ho leti hain; yeh bhi ho liin humaare saath. Khair, ek lambe arse ke baad kuchch yahaan aakar likha hai aur is baat kii kaafi raahat hai ab. Dekhte hain is raahat se kab tak guzaaraa hota hai. :)

Last Waltz

Let me sing you a waltz
Out of nowhere, out of my thoughts
Let me sing you a waltz
About this one night stand

You were for me that night
Everything I always dreamt of in life
But now you're gone
You are far gone
All the way to your island of rain

It was for you just a one night thing
But you were much more to me
Just so you know

I hear rumors about you
About all the bad things you do
But when we were together alone
You didn't seem like a player at all

I don't care what they say
I know what you meant for me that day
I just wanted another try
I just wanted another night
Even if it doesn't seem quite right
You meant for me much more
Than anyone I've met before

One single night with you little ****
Is worth a thousand with anybody

I have no bitterness, my sweet
I'll never forget this one night thing
Even tomorrow, another arms
My heart will stay yours until I die

Let me sing you a waltz
Out of nowhere, out of my blues
Let me sing you a waltz
About this lovely one night stand...


~Julie Delpy (in "Before Sunset")
Listen

And yes, I plug anybody's name in the *s.

Happy Birthday!

Atthanni sii Zindagii

Kabhi chaand kii tarah tapki,
Kabhi raah mein padi paai,
Atthanni sii Zindagi,
Yeh Zindagi...

Kabhi chheenk ki tarah khanki,
Kabhi jeb se nikal aayi,
Atthanni sii Zindagi,
Yeh Zindagi...

Kabhi chehre pe jadi dekhi,
Kahin mod pe khadi dekhi,
Sheeshe ke martabaanon mein,
Dukaan pe padi dekhi,
Chaukanni sii Zindagi,
Yeh Zindagi...

Tamge lagaake milti hai,
Maasoomiyat se khilti hai,
Kabhi phool haath mein lekar,
Shaakhon pe baitthi hilti hai,
Atthanni sii Zindagi,
Yeh Zindagi...


~Gulzar (Who else?)

Ek geet ... Eh geet

Ajj asaan ve bolna / Today I shall speak
Ajj kise na tokna / Today I shan't be stopped
Lekh ve jindrhi da / The script of destiny
Ajj asaan ve bhogna / Today I shall live it

Na roveen meet moiyan te mere / Don't cry at my death my Friend
Na paavin vainh moiyan te / Don't sing mournful tunes
Tu gaaveen geet / Sing instead this song
Ek geet / This Song

Kal jo beet gaya / Yesterday, all that passed
Na beeteya O jo beet gaya / Hasn't passed but remains with me
Sool mere seene / A thorn in my heart
Vairi khob gaya / Driven by Foe

Keetey main sab chaare / I've used all options
Saarey upaa haare / All cures have failed
Ehda 'laaj bas ek geet / The only cure is this song
Ek geet hijar da / A song of longing

Ek geet hijar da / A song of longing
Ek geet sabar da / A song of restraint
Ek geet karam da / A song of kindness
Ek geet reham da / A song of mercy

Ek geet milan da / A song of union
Ek geet balan da / A song of burning
Ek geet gunaah da / A song of Sin
Ek geet panaah da / A song of pardon

Ek geet, Ek geet, Ek geet / A song, A song, A song

Hunh na kujh disda / Now I see nothing
Hunh na kujh sujhda / Now I can't grasp anything
Zehar naseebaan da / Since the poison of the fate
Ajj asaan jo peeta / Has been mine to drink

Sa'te taras kareen / Have mercy on me
Na lekha mera mangii / Don't ask for my liabilities
Ve tu sunii eh mera geet / Just listen this song of mine

Vekheen zara / Look here
Na hove kharaab / Don't let it go waste
Boohey tere, hanju mera / This teardrop of mine
Ho jaave tere dar te manzoor / Let it be accepted at your gate
Mere Huzoor / My Master

Eh geet hijar da / This song of longing
Eh geet sabar da / This song of restraint
Eh geet karam da / This song of kindness
Eh geet reham da / This song of mercy

Eh geet milan da / This song of union
Eh geet balan da / This song of burning
Eh geet gunaah da / This song of Sin
Eh geet panaah da / This song of pardon

Eh geet, Eh geet, Eh geet / This song, This song, This song


~Rabbi Shergill

Yeh Faasle...

Ye faasle terii galiyon ke hamse tay na hue
hazaar baar ruke hum, hazaar baar chale

na jaane kaun sii mittii watan kii mittii thii
nazar mein dhool, zigar mein liye ghubaar chale

ye kaisi sarahadein uljhi hui hain pairon mein,
hum apne ghar ki taraf utthke baar baar chale,

na raastaa kahiin tthahraa na manzilein tthahriin,
ye umr udtii hui gard mein guzaar chale ...

~Gulzar

Muddatein hui, humne ek film dekhi thhi, "Mammo". Amit Phalke, Fareeda Jalal aur Surekha Seekri. Doordarshan par aayi thhi. Main yeh jaan kar bada khush hua thha ki us ladke ka bhi naam "Amit" hai. Un dinon Doordarshan par "Mammo" jaisi filmein dikhaayi jaati thhiin. Jaane kya baat thhi is film mein, zehan mein tthahar sii gayi, khaas kar ye nazm. Aur mazey kii baat ye bhi hai, ki yeh nazm us ek baar ke baad sunne ko naseeb nahin hui, lekin ab tak zabaan par chadhi hui hai. Goya, humnein koshish kaafi kii thhi, ki kahin se mil jaaye (aur koshish ab bhi jaari hai!).
Jaane kitni baar humnein khud ko yeh nazm gungunaate huey, yaa ek andekhe se background mein bajte huey paaya hai. Gaadi ki chhuk chhuk ke beech Chilka ki pursuqoon hawaaon mein, aur jab Janpath se liye huey khaadi ka kurta pahne aur angochcha liye (jo jaan-boojh kar pahna gaya thha ki main orissa ke aadivaasiyon ke beech koi ajoobaa na lagoon) Tamana aur Mohuda ke beech ka raasta tay kar raha thha aur har us baar bhi jab "ghar" ke mayane badle hain. Ab itne saal ho chuke hain ghar se door rahte hue ki, is baat ka yakeen nahin raha ki ghar ko mera intezaar hai bhi ya nahin? Woh bhi shayad ab tak mera intezaar nahin karna chahta, aur karey bhi kyon?? Main koi George pancham to hoon nahin!
Isi nazm par kisi se se pahli baar hui baat, lambi "baat-cheet" mein badal gayi thhi, college ki puraani library ke saamne. Library ke saamne aisi "filmi" mulakaat ke baad zaahir see baat hai dil ballion uchchlaa. Haanlaaki isse pahle ki dil uchchal kar baahar nikal aaye, humne bamushkil is par qaaboo kiya aur seedhiyon se utarate is baat par bhi gaur kiya ki aise vaakye aakhir library ke ird-gird hi kyon hote hain?
Aur har baar yeh nazm , atke hue sirey se zabaan par aa giri hai jab faasle tay karne mein khud ko bebas paaya hai, faasle jo bin bataye chupke se dabey paaon aa gaye. Aaj bhi yehi nazm background mein sunaai padti hai jab, raat ki suqoon mein, peeli roshani mein dhuli hui hyderabad ki sadkon par Ghar lautate hue, NIFT ki ladkiyon ko aur khud jaise gale mein apna apna "patta" daale huey logon ko dekhte huey guzartaa hoon. Ab bhi hawaa mere baalon se khelti hai, lekin yeh Chilka ki nahin Hyderabad ki shahri , dhuein waali, garm hawaa hai jisme suqoon to nahin lekin ek khilandadapan zaroor hai.
Jaane aise kitne lamhein bhi is nazm ki hi tarah kahin atke huey hain anjaane siron par, jo muddatein huin ek film mein suni thhi humnein.

Why don't you stay?

I know it’s late, I know you’re weary
I know your plans don’t include me
Still here we are, both of us lonely
Longing for shelter from all that we see
Why should we worry, no one will care girl

Look at the stars so far away
We’ve got tonight, who needs tomorrow?
We’ve got tonight, babe
Why don’ t you stay?

Deep in my soul, I’ve been so lonely
All of my hopes, fading away
I’ve longed for love, like everyone else does
I know I’ll keep searching, even after today

So there it is girl, I’ve said it all now
And here we are babe, what do you say?
We’ve got tonight, who needs tomorrow?
We’ve got tonight babe
Why don’t you stay?

I know it’s late, I know you’re weary
I know your plans don’t include me
Still here we are, both of us lonely
Both of us lonely...

We’ve got tonight, who needs tomorrow?
Let’s make it last, let’s find a way
Turn off the light, come take my hand now

We’ve got tonight babe
Why don’t you stay?
Let's make it last, let's find a way...

Why don't you stay?
~Bob Seger

How does it feel to find something that you have heard years ago, and felt the pangs of the heart, then?Elated and lonely. And years after when you find "it" and listen to it , you realize that not much has changed. I heard this song by Bob Seger, years ago when it featured on "The Wonder Years", Kevin's and mine. Growing up with Kev was fun, though both of us were seperated in time and space. I wish somebody did stay back with Kev and looked at those stars with him ...

Untitled

"ek geet hijar da...
ek geet sabar da...
ek geet gunaah da...
ek geet panaah da ..."

Preet

Jo tum todo piyaa main naaheen todoon re,
tose preet tod "krishnaa" kaun sang joduun re?

Aab-o-hawaa

Khumar-e-gham hai mehekti fizaa mein jeete hain,
Tere khayaal kii aab-o-hawa mein jeete hain,

Bade tapaak se milte hain milne wale mujhe,
Wo mere dost hain terii wafaa mein jeete hain,

Firaaq-e-yaad main saanson ko roke rakhte hain,
har ek lamha guzarti kazaa mein jeete hain,

Na baat poori hui thhi ki raat toot gayii,
adhoore khwaab kii aadhi sazaa mein jeete hain,

Tumhaari baaton main koi masihaa bastaa hai,
haseen labon se barasti shafaa main jeete hain...

~Gulzar

Two soggy eyes ... and an emptiness...

I Love You

I do not love you as if you were the salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way than this,

where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep...

~Pablo Neruda (Sonnet XVII)

Saddest Poem

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.

Write, for instance: "The night is full of stars,
and the stars, blue, shiver in the distance."

The night wind whirls in the sky and sings.
I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.

I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

On nights like this, I held her in my arms.
I kissed her so many times under the infinite sky.

She loved me, sometimes I loved her.
How could I not have loved her large, still eyes?

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.
To think I don't have her.
To feel that I've lost her.

To hear the immense night, more immense without her.
And the poem falls to the soul as dew to grass.

What does it matter that my love couldn't keep her.
The night is full of stars and she is not with me.
That's all.

Far away, someone sings.
Far away, My soul is lost without her.
As if to bring her near, my eyes search for her.
My heart searches for her and she is not with me.

The same night that whitens the same trees.
We, we who were, we are the same no longer.

I no longer love her, true, but how much I loved her.

My voice searched the wind to touch her ear.
Someone else's.
She will be someone else's.
As she once belonged to my kisses.
Her voice, her light body.
Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, true, but perhaps I love her.

Love is so short and oblivion so long.
Because on nights like this I held her in my arms,
my soul is lost without her.

Although this may be the last pain she causes me,
and this may be the last poem I write for her.


~Pablo Neruda

Us roz...

Log kahte hain, hui thhi baarish us roz,
unhe kya pata, gham-e-hiz mein roya thha koi,

yun saaye dekh kar khush hote hain sab ghafil,
unhe kya pata kal dhoop mein soya thha koi,

qatra qatra kar ke muskurate hain sabhi,
unhe kya pata chashm-e-tar mein soya thha koi,

manzil-e-aakhir ko ab chalte hain raahil,
unhe kya pata in raahon par soya thha koi ...